Saturday, December 15, 2012

Heading Towards the Light

Sometimes life just happens--real life--and some things are completely out of our control in it. Recently a tragedy occurred in the US that just frankly broke my heart. Earlier I was fussing over things going wrong in SL when I found out about this RL event. That's when things got real and yanked me out of whatever asinine drama I thought was important in SL.

I should be resting for a last minute, 6 a.m. rehearsal for the finals. Apparently the stage builder hadn't completed it and made some changes that Mr. Mills did not expect. This means even the final staging will be a total surprise for us. I was originally upset by this until, as I said, things got real. It doesn't matter now.

I want to say that the last four months, despite my frustrations, have definitely been an eye-opener. I discovered more about myself as well as others. I am more confident about the type of person I am and the goals I wish to achieve in 2013. No matter the outcome of this competition, I don't regret doing it because my path is clear now. I know the direction I want to take, and I don't plan to look back.

Recently I watched a vlog of Big Bang fan girls and their trip to their L.A. concert. They traveled all the way from Utah to watch these Korean pop idols perform live. At the end of their 3-day adventure to meet the band they only knew from YouTube merely months ago, they posted a fitting quote that summoned up their feelings: It's better to look back on life and say, "I can't believe I did that," than to look back and say, "I wish I did that."

I don't know if that's an original quote from them, but I would say it speaks to my feelings towards MVW as well. The journey was long and very hard. Nothing came easy but I was touched by the overwhelming support I received from friends and even strangers. I'm so glad I did the I Am Me campaign, which encouraged others to love themselves behind the screen and not worry about some online image that only speaks to a fraction of their personality. When all is said and done, the person on the other side of that screen is the one who must face the greatest challenges in dealing with a real world that can seem both beautiful and mad at the same time.

Hours from now I will appear on that stage in two breathtaking gowns. I will showcase the hard work of Evangeline Miles, Monica Outlander, Vikeejeah Xevion and Yula Finesmith. I will show the audience what months of dedication, perseverance, and commitment looks like. I will hold my head high knowing I represented Canada and models of color to the best of my ability and did it with integrity and class. I thank God for this moment which feels so insignificant in the light of recent events. Although there is sorrow in my heart for those grieving losses today, I will not shed a tear over losing MVW. I have gained more blessings than one could ever hope for and regret nothing.

For those who have followed my journey, I thank you from the bottom of my heart. I'm just a strange person who occasionally ventures into a virtual world to meet kindred souls from across the globe. Thanks to this, I feel less lonely on the planet and take great solace in knowing that people who I've never met face to face have come to accept the very real woman behind this blog. I hope you'll continue follow my journey, wherever it may lead.

The finals begin at 10am SLT today and you can view it online through live streaming at Metaverse TV. As I warned, it will be a very LONG program so keep the drinking to a minimum for fewer bathroom trips. Feel free to comment in the chat box on the sidebar of the video feed, but please don't feed the trolls any drama. They show up every year and every year they just sound lame and ignorant--ignore them. That said, I will NOT be in there myself, so if anyone claims to be ME, they are LYING! You don't have to point it out in chat because anyone silly enough to believe I'd risk crashing just to watch myself in a pageant, clearly does not know me well. I'm not stupid; that sim will be super laggy. I can watch the edited video and look at pics after the winner is crowned.

Thanks again for all the words of encouragement! I'll post about the aftermath once it's over!

Yes, it is me in this poster. Tiny victory \o/

Tuesday, December 11, 2012

The End is Near...

I don't know about the world ending, but I do know that Miss Virtual World 2013 will end this Saturday, December 15th at 10 am SLT. Well technically that's when the finals start to air on Metaverse TV, and it should go on for about 3-5 hours. I suggest to anyone that watches the finals to lay off the liquids that day if you insist on seeing every minute of it.

I can finally reveal the Apocalyptic look I compiled months ago for one of the style challenges. My inspiration was the new NBC show Revolution, but somehow I ended up looking like Lara Croft with short braids. You may laugh. It was not intentional but I admit it's funny how I managed to do that out of sheer serendipity--emphasis on the "dip" part. Despite that, I thought I looked like a deranged vigilante hell bent on survival at all costs. Wasn't my strongest styling, but I gave it a shot.

There are only a few days left before the debut of my custom gowns from Evie's Closet and Miamai, as well as custom hair from Loovus Dzevavor. I wish I could invite you all to attend the finals in person, but given the magnitude of this event, it is open to only the judges and some VIPs. The positive thing is that because it will be on Metaverse TV, you will all be able to see it lag free from inworld or even offline if you don't wish to log in. I know some people plan viewing parties every year for this, which is a great idea to watch the Misses and share opinions of their costume, swimwear and formal looks. As usual, there may be trolls in the Metaverse chat room on the side of the viewing screen. Please just ignore them as their only purpose is to stir up unnecessary drama. I don't care what some anonymous troll hiding behind a screen and various alts has to say so neither should you. I know the people in my life that matter care about me most and that's all that counts.

I know I won't win. Don't make that face. It's not that I've given up, it's just that I know when there are better stylists than me that deserve to win. I have a good idea of who the top 5 will be, but we'll find that out on Saturday. Even with 40% of the score left, I still think my predictions won't be too far off. In the interest of good sportsmanship, I won't list the names here. I will post my reactions after finals of course.

Before I do forget, you do have a chance to vote for your fave MVW. The most popular one will get an award for being the people's choice. That's it. Not really a huge deal. Vote for whoever, doesn't have to be me. Just click the circle next to her name and then touch the vote button at the bottom of the page. Here's the link

Thanks for the support!

Boots: DECO
Dirt makeup: Pekka
Nose piercing: Exxess (part of Rusch outfit)
Tank: MichaMi
Bruises: Lovely Mi
Necklace and cigarette: Virtual/Insanity
Earrings: Maxi Gossamer
Handgun: CnS e-motion
Runny mascara: blackliquid
Pose: Avante Poses (no longer available)
Rest of ensemble: Bare Rose (various outfits combined)

Monday, December 3, 2012

Interview with a MVW - Part Zwei

Apologies for the very long overdue post again. The weeks leading up to MVW's finals have been mentally taxing and my energy is quite drained. Even though I've been in two pageants before this, I can say this one has been the toughest to endure. In less than two weeks a new MVW will be crowned and at least 29 contestants can get a bit more sleep and relaxation. The winner will just have to forgo slumber for an entire year.

Members of the public were invited to a live press presentation featuring the MVWs wearing the same Mimikri dress. We were allowed to style it up as we liked of course. I went for something simple since I figured the idea was to focus on us more than what we wore. This would be a chance for the audience to ask one question and get to know each contestant better. I was happy to have a couple of friends there to cheer me on as I approached the front of the stage for my question.

I got one that I've been asked many times before: "Why did you choose to represent Canada? What is it about its culture and traditions that appeal to you?" Sometimes this question bothers me only because on screen it almost translates as "Why didn't you choose a different country?" I'm sure that wasn't the intent, but I do feel very strongly about my relationship to my Canadian friends and their homeland. I feel no shame at all in being the virtual face of a diverse country that embraces many cultures and traditions. They love their beavers and poutine. Someone loved their maple syrup enough to steal 600 barrels of it, which devastated many pancake fans I'm sure. I love that every Canadian I have ever met has had a warm and welcoming heart that accepts people as they are. Being a film graduate, I have always dreamt of attending the Toronto Film Festival since many American movies are made there. I love that gay marriage is legal in a majority of the country there and that I don't get the sense that people let the concept of religion overshadow the importance of treating others humanely. And yes I have considered dual citizenship so that I may call both North American countries, USA and Canada, my home. There are many reasons why to choose Canada. The better question would be, "why not choose Canada?" I'm very proud of my choice.

Before anyone starts applauding, since it was a question asked on the spot, I should point out that the above answer is the long form of what I gave. My actual answer was about three sentences long, but I wanted to be considerate to the other 26 contestants who had yet to speak after me. I wasn't about to take up several minutes to try and prove I'm some super intellectual being with a lot to say. That is what a blog is for.

The results of who won the audience vote was never told to us. I don't know if we'll ever get the results. I can't answer as to why there is so much secrecy concerning our rank in the competition. I want to believe it's for a positive reason, but like a few others, I'm baffled by the judging system. I want to know how I'm doing and be able to answer that question when people ask "so how are you doing in MVW?" It would be like running a marathon and never having the final race times posted. Athletes want to know if all that hard work and practice paid off so getting some kind of feedback would be appreciated. Even if they don't want to give us scores, at least some judging feedback would help us grow as models.

We had a Winter Wonderland show with our Valentino looks yesterday. We were also told by Mr. Mills in a notice that they had their top 12 and top 5 chosen--for the competition, not the challenge. Again, please don't freak out, all 30 contestants will be in the finals given that nothing horrible happens to any of them before Dec. 15. All the notice meant is that for the most part, the competition is pretty much over so there is nothing more to do than focus on the big day of announcing who the winner is. For some, like me, this is a bit of a relief because the decisions have been made and nothing more can be done to change them. For others, it could be a discouraging message that there is no point in trying any harder to campaign for the title at this point. (Update: A notice came later from Mr. Mills explaining the ill-worded message sent yesterday and that the finals will account for the remaining 40% of the overall score in choosing the next MVW.)

I have many, many things to say about my experience but for now I'll withhold those comments publicly for the sake of fulfilling several promises to see this thing through. I'll just continue to say what I can't seem to stop saying to all of you reading this: thank you for the support. It has meant more than you may ever know.

Dress: Mimikri
Shoes: Leverocci
Jewelry: Finesmith Jewelry
Eyeshadow: MONS
Lipstick: m.o.c.k. cosmetics
Hair: Loovus Dzevavor